Yeah, but the past is the problem. I can't catch a break man, and I've been really fucked up about it for the last couple of days. I'm not a bad person, and never have been, but I swear the dumbest shit, or problems others caused gets held against me and I'm the asshole for it when I get pissed. I wanted this to be the answer for me, and thought it was. And for what? I haven't done anything wrong. There's just always some drama that comes out of nowhere and if I react I'm the asshole, and I've dealt with it a lot in life being shitcanned for what others did.