"I want something more, and better, but I'm stuck somewhere that's not offering me anything." read this carefully, do you not see the fucked up logic here? You are where you are because of choices YOU made, where do you dare get off thinking the world owes you ANYTHING at all? You have to put into the world to get anything back, as I said earlier, that is life 101, if you were not taught this your parents get an F-! Were you raised by wolves or worse the internet? People have come from far worse and done far better, but they worked life, did not sit around and wait for it....(the world offering me something) god man...WTF?!? To participate in any activity, you first have to have a "life' of your own, not be constantly sponging off the hard work of others, living at their pleasure, and because they feel bad for you and are hoping by giving you a break you will use the "free life" to get your own in order. If it takes you 5 yrs working shit jobs and busting your ass to get your own place, the rides will still be there, and you can afford what you want on your own, you can grab a hotel rm at a rally if that's what you are into, but you have to do the work to create a life for yourself, in order to be a functioning part of ANY group. How have you possibly lived this long and not been aware of this? Maybe you need in-patient treatment? If so turn yourself in and ask for it...'cuz your mindset will not do you any favors. I have tried to piss you off enough to change, (someone ragging on me like I have done to you is what did it for me) tried being nice to you, offering suggestions, explaining real life to you, so have many others, but until YOU decide to change, the "world" is not going to "offer" you a goddamn thing. Why should it? You are owed NOTHING because you were born, you are fortunate beyond words for the accident of geography of where you were born, the United States, people lose their lives trying to get here for a CHANCE to work at Target or McDonalds, and pull themselves up from crushing poverty, if they can do it, you sure can, you know the language, have valid id, a ss# (I assume) you are miles ahead, yet have not the motivation of those far less well off than you. Quit waiting for the world, it has no idea you exist, because you have not told it you do! Jump in, the water's fine. People will help you once you try, but not while you whine on someone else's couch!